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TeXaNaRi
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Location: California, United States
Birthday: 8/14/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: snowboarding, hang gliding, skydiving, white water rafting...hehe...basically anything that'll give u a rush
Expertise: sLeEpInG
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
10/6/2002
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| A lot of time has passed since i last made an entry...and looking at it now i realize the last time i made an entry wuz when i decided that SMU wuz where i wanted to go...i don't regret that decision at all...i'm completely loving it here at Southern Methodist University (for those that don't know wut SMU stands for)
The weather wuz really hot here until recently, the weather wuz really great today with a light breeze and it wuzn't so humid either...
I'm taking a bunch of classes...about 15 hours worth i think...there's like precalc, psych, intro to web programming, multimedia app and of course that subject we all love and cherish....english...who hoo....
For those of you that always made fun of me for being texan...u'd get a kick out of just talking to me on the phone now since my accent is coming back...i find myself saying stuff like goodnight y'all but it comes out sounding like goodnat chy'all and i just step back and laugh at myself! I hope that maybe some of you guyz culd come visit me here...if you came on a friday or saturday night there's no doubt u'd have a good time...party central down here!!
The workload i find here isn't all that much different than that at harker, i found that really suprising...i wuz really worried at first that i wuld find myself unprepared and swamped with endless tasks piling up on me but i actually have more free time on my hands than i ever did in high school...only problem is that i'm becoming a kind of insomniac...having problems sleeping at night
Our dorm had its suprise fire drill last night, or i shuld say this morning since the alarm went off at 6am in the morning...we all had to collect outside the hall in our pyjama's and let me tell u this...IT WUZ SO COLD outside that everyone wuz shivering...most of the guyz were wearing no shoes, no shirts and we just in boxers...mind you i wuzn't complaining or anything but i just felt bad for them...hehe...i wuzn't able to get back to sleep until 7am and then i needed to get up at 8:30....well, my roomate told me that just before she left for class she saw me sit up and turn off my alarm...but i have absolutely no recollection of my alarm even going off so i missed my psych class (its too big to take roll anywayz but yea)....i woke up right when it wuz scheduled to end...i got up, finished writing an english paper...went to eat lunch with this guy scott (who rubbed the fact that i missed class cuz i overslept in my face!) and then came back to rest a little bit before my precalc class at 3pm....i got my precalc quiz back with a 100% stamped on the front....it made me feel a bit better about screwing up my morning
College life isn't that much different from high school except that you don't have an annoying parent sitting over your shoulder and watching your every move...i know i hated when my dad did that....people asked me if i wuz going to go back and visit him for thanksgiving or christmas and i flat out said no....i don't want to see him again, i kno that may seem harsh but whenever i talk to him, its as if all he cares about is my academic life...he just doesn't give a shit about whether i'm happy or not...when i wuz going to sign up for classes at the beginning of the semester, i had talked about studying marketing in college and then i said...well, wut if i find that i don't like marketing at all....his tone changed completely and spat out "well i'm not paying for you to go to college and screw around"....i started to cry but stopped myself because i wuzn't going to give him the satisfaction of upsetting me a last time before i started school...ugh, its such a relief to be free of him....
If i ever had a reason to go back to california...it wuldn't be because of him...it wuld be to visit all my friends, those of you who are still at harker, those who are coming back for vacation from college...
I'm getting tired of typing in here...if you guyz still wanna talk to me you can email me at arianaboo@aol.com or at ajoll@mail.smu.edu
i hope everything is going as well for y'all as it is for me! catch ya later | | |
| Wow, i haven't written in here in a while...itz been like a whole month...i visited SMU over spring break in texas...and decided that thatz where i'm gonna go next year...*sigh* itz just so sad to be thinking of college, i mean, i kno itz great and all that i'm finally going to be thru with high school but i just don't wanna leave all of mai friendz, i'm gonna miss them alot...some are going off to college far away and some are still gonna be at harker for another year. I hope they all know how much i'll miss them =/
Prom is coming up soon, and i think i'll end up just goin stag...what can i say...i alwayz live up to mai record of not being able to get a date, how sad is that?! I still have a couple weeks so maybe i'll get lucky (yea right!). Either way, i'm having a sleepover afterwardz at mai house and we're gonna stay up all night watching movies, so that shuld be fun fun.
Our softball team isn't doing much better this year...the varsity level is taking itz toll on all our sophomore and frosh players...no offense to them...u guyz are playing really great and u'll do even better next year despite not having me and kari for catcher and pitcher...itz also one of the reasons i'm gonna miss harker...i love playing on the softball team; sure ppl culd say itz weird that i like playing so much but i can't help it...the school i'm going to next year will not have a softball team, sadly to say...but they'll have like intramural softball (sorri if i can't spell it right)...u kno, like softball within the school.
I'm gonna hafta get a guy to explain this to me one day...how is it that i get a 'friend' sign stamped on my forehead? I'll understand how i can alwayz put maiself in a position of being friendz with guyz but never anything else. Itz like a repelling effect, that i can't undo....
Ok...i can't contemplate that thought anymore...
I came home earli todai cuz our practice was cancelled due to rain...big surprise...ate dinner and then watched yuyu hakusho and rurouni kenshin and then fell asleep. I had like the weirdest dream too, it was so weird too cuz i was at school and in the main building but like all the power was out or something...except like there was a strange light coming from out of sutton's classroom from both of the doors; i culd hear some weird music playing....so picture this...i'm at the end of the main building (the side closest to the edge) and i'm looking down a pitch black main building and there are bright lights coming out of both of sutton's doors that resemble the kinda light made by electricity and lightning...and then i can see a shadow of a guy standing in the middle of the hallway, in between the two doors (like where the activities board is and everything) he's dancing really strangly to the music - itz as if like everything, and even the music is in slow motion- and so i walk over to check it out and then i start dancing too...it wuz way weird...
Ok, i'm sick of listening to maiself talk...i'm out | | |
| Ok, so i haven't written in here in like a week...there ain't exactly a whole lotta stuff to talk about...
Friday, we had a softball game against woodside priory (home game)...the first 4 innings of the game were completely intense...it wuz all like 3 up 3 down...and we held woodside at one run...but in like the 5th or 6th inning, ppl started to get tired and started to make little mistakes and we lost...we played really well...i just wish our team could kick it up a step in batting cuz itz kinda pathetic...i'm sorri guyz but we need to improve...don't get me wrong...i'm including myself in this 'we' here ok *sigh*
i'm busy setting up a plan for college visits during spring break...i'll prolli fly down to texas and visit the 3 universities i got into down there (Baylor University, Texas Wesleyan & Southern Methodist University) it shuld be fun..
i'm lookin forward to prom...i made a deal wit cathleen ages ago that since she didn't go to winter formal and stuff she has to go to prom...hehe...i just need a date; somethin much easier said than done...wish me luck!
Ok, i dunno wut else to say rite now...so i'm out...ciaoz | | |
| Today had itz up and itz downz...it wuz bad enuf that itz a monday but i also had a math quiz...ugh...i guess itz wuz an ok thing tho since i covers for me failing the last one...i like totally bombed the one we had on friday cuz i wuz in such a bad mood...like i said, mr bither wuz bitchin at me so i blew it....wutever...got mai physical done today, finally...but those sons of bitches charged me so much money, goodness...look, i can tell u whether i'm healthy and i don't need to charge u a penny...jeez, wut a rip off!!
Softball practice wuz pretty good, i spent the first like 15 minutes doin summersaults and stuff with cathleen and then i showed her how to slide...the rest of the team showed up on the bus and we did our basic infield outfield separation thing...and then we put it all togetha...we're progressing but itz a slow process, if we wanna do betta this season ppl need to pull together and work hard, including me...just cuz i'm captain doesn't mean that i don't need the practice...there's so much stuff i gotta get better at...i need better endurance, quicker reflexes to catch those fast movin foul balls that fly over me...i love playin, and i'd love it even more if our team culd pull together and take home some wins...we're losing to the teams at the bottom of our league...itz so sad!! We can do SO much better, i've seen them all play so much better, so i kno they've got it in them....and i'm gonna stop talkin about that becuz i sound like a motivational speaker or something
I got into the University of San Francisco todai...a bit better news...and then a lil later mai dad came pounding on mai door and started yelling at me about being selfish...i have no idea why he got all angry at me...i hadn't done anything!! i wuz doing mai french homework (yes, i was actually doing homework...BELIEVE IT) when he bangs open mai door and starts yelling at me about some form that i had to get signed...and i did get it signed...but he wuz so busy yelling, he didn't let me get to that...then he slammed mai door...knocking a few things off mai walls *sigh* nothing is ever good enuf for him i guess. He hasn't even shown that he's glad i've gotten into 5 universities outta the 8 decisions that have come out so far...he really knows how to shove your face in the dirt and make u feel like shit. I'll never live up to his expectations and i can accept that...but he can't, he'll never stop pushing me, never stop harassing me about not living up to his expectations. Do u know what it's like living your life each day and never feeling adaquate...oh well
i'm tired...i'm angry...i'm so confused.......i'm out, ciaoz | | |
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Well, alot of the UC's decisions have come out in the last cuple weeks and...but i like wuzn't expecting to get into alot of them so when i didn't get into UCI, UCD, or UCLA...it wuzn't exactly a shock...haha...even if i had gotten in i wuldn't have gone there so it doesn't really matter...at most it wuld just be a matter of actually being accepted...but yea. i don't really know where i wanna go actually but SMU wuz one of the top schools on mai list...itz good cuz it offers alot of internships; meaning that when u graduate u have the opportunity to graduate with job offers and such...so yea, great stuff...btw...if u didn't kno, itz in texas =P
weekend wuz pretty boring...we had a softball game on friday against kings academy but there wuz like this whole major issue thing about getting physicals and stuff...i still haven't gotten mine but i will tomorro before softball practice so that u kno, we can get there on time and wutever...mr bither pretty much like bitched me out about being irresponsible, and setting a bad example and everything being mai fault but he can shove it up his ass cuz i work mai ass off for the softball team and if he doesn't appreciate it then he can just piss off...i'm glad that the bus left early so we didn't have to go to advisor's...since he's mai advisor i really wasn't looking forward to seeing him again...i wuz in such a bad mood...i'm sorri if u think that i'm being mean or wutever but i hate it when people bitch at me about stupid things
we ended up bringing along 2 ppl that don't play softball...vivian and jen jenq (juniorz)...they did really well under the circumstances but we still lost...it wuz a bad game....prolli the worst so far; i ended up being the onli person to even score a run, the final score being something like 22-1, omg it wuz so tragic...i hate it when i'm crouched behind the home plate watching people make the same mistakes over and over again, despite whether or not i shout the play at them, they don't listen, they don't get it, and they just fumble...just picture this...i shout out the play...2 outs, bases loaded (force out at any base) and a ball is hit to the shortstop...itz fielded really well and in good time enuf to just underthrow it to second base to get an out...but NOOOO...we hafta throw it to first becuz we weren't paying attention...omg...i'm sorri you guyz but u need to listen better...
ok...i'm done rambling about this crap...school tomorro and homework to finish, ciaoz | | |
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